Hi Demi, you're not alone. This is normal and happens to me. So bad in fact, that I have threatened members of my family with violence on occassion (totally out of character) and have currently a hole in my door and in my wall from me throwing objects hard and fast across my room in a state of almost unspeakable rage and anguish, just from the mercury.

So I'm only glad I didn't do worse. I have written letters that could have gotten me into serious trouble because at the time, though I had justifiable anger, I crossed over the line and didn't really think it at the time.

You become totally distraught and you have no idea what to do, where to go, what to take because anything you try and do seems to have another problem or another block and you get to a point where you feel totally persecuted.

Don't feel bad, it's not your fault. I have to refrain from posting or writing letters most of the time now because of this as I can change from one day to the next in how I think and feel and I find it frankly frightening.