Hiya Clare,

For what its worth i experienced the exact same thing! I was'nt a christian at all but my Dad had given his life to the Lord many years before, I felt so possesed at one stage I rushed to his house convinced I needed to be exorcised - or locked up in a padded room. I tasted sulphur in my mouth all the time, could constantly smell fuel and had the most horrific thoughts you could ever imagine, and it came out of nowhere. Needless to say I became a christian and im so glad i did. It got me through many a dark hour.

Last year was the worst of my life. No matter how hard I tried I could think of nothing positive and I thought that everything was evil and out to get me, completely paranoid and dillusional. Feelings of impending doom haunted me and although I was saved I kept obsessing that God was going to pull the rug out from under me any second as a final punishment.

Looking back now ( few months post removal) I am fortunately able to laugh at myself. It was a rollercoaster ride unlike any other. Granted I do still have the odd bad day when some of it comes back and for a few seconds I get scared and want to cry but then I remember the great days I had before and it gets me through. I am a billion times better and the light at the end of my dark tunnel just keeps getting brighter and brighter.

All I can say is hang in there, it does get better, and it will for you too. Dont lose faith in yourself because its not you having the scary thoughts it is the mercury manifesting in your mind - I know - dont feel guilty about them either. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Hope you feel better soon!

Take care and God Bless!