Aaron, please know you are not alone. I don't want to commit suicide but I want to die every day. Sometimes I pray to God to please just take me in my sleep. I am a wife and a mother and I know it is very selfish but sometimes I am just in so much pain I think I cannot take it anymore.

I just wanted you to know that someone else knows how you feel. I have not had my amalgams out yet but I am in the process of getting started. I am trying to think only positive things about it but I am very scared. I keep thinking "what it I get worse?"

I would try a different method than the DMPS if I were you. As for me, I won't go near it and if a doctor wants to use it on me I will run like heck away from that person. I have Cutler's book and it sounds promising but then I have heard from others it is a little harsh. However, if you have been doing 20 dmps iv's it can't be any more harsh than that!

I sincerely hope that you are feeling much better soon.

spiderbaby