I thought about mercury all the time when I first learnt about it, but now I don't. I find it only makes me depressed, so I try to think about other things. Also I have other things in my life besides the mercury that are stressing me out (although mercury is probably responsible for some of those aswell) and health issues that I don't think are mercury related but mpact me, mostly psychologically.

I try not to think that mercury has ruined my life because I like to think there is something out there worth living for and that all will work towards some ultimate good if I can find the strength inside myself to get through. I try not to think of the life I could have had if I hadn't of been poisoned as a child, or if my mother hadn't been poisoned, because I ultimately don't know that this mercury thing hasn't worked to my benefit in some way i.e. if I hadn't of got poisoned I could have got myself into messes that because of my anxiety I avoided. I know it's not much to hold onto, but it's just my way of coping with things.

I've had a lot of difficult things happen in my life, not all mercury related, and I just try to cope with everything as best as I can. Considering I have an anxiety disorder, I think I've done ok, as I think some of the things I've been through would have been too much for normal people. I try not to get bitter and blame others for my problems. I also try not to blame myself, or God, and just accept my situation and get on with things. But I do get bouts of major depression and thinking that nothing good is ever going to happen, and I don't think all that is mercury related. I just fight those feelings and try to find something to look forward too, even if it's just to rent a video or buy a new book or plan a holiday. I think that everyone goes through difficult times and we can come out stronger and better if we find the strength in ourselves. I think it's great for those who have supportive partners, I really wish I did, but learning to lean on ourselves and God is perhaps an even greater strength, I don't know.