Hi Spiderbaby, been there and done that. If you feel the psychiatry helps, that is great. But I can tell you one thing, when you are poisoned by something thatt poisons your brain (or liver that can give you brain symptoms)and you can try all you want to think happy thoughts and you're fighting against a toxin, not yourself.

The best thing you can do is not put pressure on yourself to think in a way you cannot think when your brain is toxic. Psychiatrists will tell you all manner of things and say you are being negative or you are hurting yourself by thinking this or that. But I know from myself, I am not a negative person but a poisoned person who when I have a good day, the positive thoughts come completely natural.

So, to let you know, don't put pressure on yourself to think in a way that can sometimes be impossible with this poison. If you can, ok, but don't worry if you cannot. It's not YOU, it's the toxins. It's like trying to psycholanalyse the toxins into being "nice and positive".

When you are truly sick, you cannot stop thinking about the sickness. It's the way sick people are, it's on their minds 24/7. Healthy people do not do this, sick people do. When they get well, they forget about sickness and live as anybody else does.

You are simply a puppet trying to fight against a poison. Not saying it's bad to try and be positive, but letting you know, it can be impossible with this stuff. It's not like having a broken leg or having some other kind of sickness where the mind is not infiltrated and penetrated by a neurotoxin!

You won't be able to stop thinking about mercury, because it is LITERALLY on your mind! You're completely normal, IT isn't.