Thanks <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I'm sorry you've had it so rough. Sounds like you are doing your best to deal with it aswell.

Sorry you can't work. I don't know if I could cope with a full time job right now. I don't think so. I haven't worked since 2001, been studying and making some money from home, and am hoping to boost that up so I can make a full time living working for myself. More than anything I don't have the energy to work all day, and I just can't sit at a desk all day without getting pains or numb in my thighs, so I work a bit on the computer, then I go out for a bit, weather permitting, and then do more work at night as I don't watch much tv. I don't think I could cope with the stress of a job, and I get panic attacks in social situations. I can't even answer the phone if I don't know who it is, which I think I mentioned before.

I'm putting off my next quadrant removal until late summer or autumn. I think it's important to go at a pace that my body can cope with. I don't think it could cope with another exposure to mercury so soon. I think I am very sensitive to this toxin.

It's so devastating what it has done to people, it really is. And it's scary not knowing what will happen, not knowing if one is doing the right thing, or what health problem is mercury caused and what is something else.