Thanks <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I try to stay positive as much as I can, but sometimes it feels like I'm holding on only to a thin line. I try to focus on getting better, but somedays it all gets too much. Then I try to think that what I'm feeling now will pass, when I am less toxic, and that there will be a silver lining. And if I get better, maybe more people will believe it was the fillings.

Aswell as the physical problems, the psychological trauma is tough. I usually cope by trying to shut out what upsets me, to shift focus onto something else, and think that at least now I know what is the cause of my problems. But sometimes the thought of having a toxic substance in my body as powerful as mercury is terrifying, especially as I've never smoked, drank alcohol (only rarely) and tried always to avoid toxins. Then I start to think about all the people poisoned by it, children, and my mother who is really ill, and that's when I know I have to shift focus, because it's too much to deal with.

I have pretty much given up on boards, except this one and a couple of others. There is so much aggro on them. I don't know what is up with people.