Demi,

The description of how you are feeling is also a symptom of heavy metal toxicity. Hopelessness is a [censored], pardon the expression, and unfortunately, it is a reality of this illness.

Do whatever you need to do to keep at this. The bottom line is that heavy metals need to be removed in order to feel better, and as difficult and hopeless as that feels some days, there are people out there who will support you through the process.

I have left some boards because of how rude some people are. Just telling some people of my experience triggered personal attacks that in time drove me off some boards. I have learned to ignore those people, and align myself with those who offer real support, suggestions, and helpful advice that is actually useful along this difficult path.

Hang in there and keep your eye on the goal. Heavy metal toxicity at times feels like the worst nightmare imaginable. Yet, there is hope. Slow and steady. And keep coming back to the people and boards that help and support you. If a person or board doesn't want to hear your reality, simply find those who do.

I think this board is one of the better ones.