Well, I didn't have the flu after all, lol. I had a major allergy attack - it's not always possible to tell first thing in the morning which is which. But I'm not sure the cause of it. Either it was because I ate a teaspoon of gone off seeds (that I was supposed to have kept refrigerated for the past 8 weeks that I didn't - and I am usually so obessive about reading the labels and insit on things going in the fridge when others aren't so bothered) or the choking dust in the air in town yesterday got to me. They are demolishing an old building and it was really windy and the dust got in my eyes and irritated my throat. I felt really whacked when I got home, whereas I felt ok before I went out. It could be either things, really. But I had terrible wooshing in my ears and sneezy/drippy nose all day. I took a long soak in the bath and that helped considerably, which makes me more prone to the dust being a problem, especially as I've been eating the seeds for some time without any noticeable problem - although I have had an unusual amount of flus this winter which could have been that. I hope people don't get serious infections from gone off raw seeds.

There was a major panic scare here over Christmas because of some serious bug in the water - no one was allowed to drink tap water. I didn't drink it anyway, but still it was stressful as this bug was so much a problem we couldn't even use tap water to clean our teeth. They've put something in the water now to make sure it's killed, as a safety precaution. But if it can kill thebug, it makes me wonder what it can do to the body.

Anyway, I have digressed, but it has been a majorly stressful day. I had another panic attack earlier today as I had a black spot in my gum and I thought I had a splinter of amalgam stuck in it, and I believe it's more toxic next to the gum (although one of my small fillings touches the gum and has for about 15 years) but my friend says it was just a bloodspot from where I'd bit a couple of days ago, as far as she can see. I'm keeping my eye on it.

I don't know if it's the mercury, but with my anxiety disorder, I tend to just to "worse case scenario" with every thing that happens. Usually my ration side kicks in, but still I get all these terrible thoughts in my head when something happens that I don't think most people think about. My aunt and uncle regularly eat food well passed the sell by date, for example, and don't think anything of it.