Hi, Demi,

After I read your long letter I feelt very heavy in my heart, especially when you talked about all the phobias you have and how OCD has keep you isolated from having a relaationship in your life. Out of all the suffering I had in my life, which I haven't mentioned, and is alot more than just what Iv'e been through with the dentists , the worst was loneliness.

I'm 46 years old and after all the bad relationships I've had, I finally found an understanding man who loves me just the way I am. In my opinion its very very difficult to find a good person who excepts your faults as well as the good things about you. I can understand your fear of not finding an understanding person, and that you don't want someone to yell at you for all your phobias. Well guess what, I had a few of thoughs and I told them to get lost!!! Noone should have to put up with that abuse!!! When the right one comes along, you'l know it., Because even if you have a clay mask all over your face, you've gained 15 pounds, or have grown to look older, this man will still think you are beautiful!!!

30 is still young. So don't think its too late to find a partner. I believe it took me this long to find the right person because I had bad luck, and because I also needed to be more easy going myself. It takes 2 to tango and I believe that both partners must contribute to eachother. They both must try to better themselves for eachother as well as except each others faults. As long as that persons faults are not abusive in any way, and as long as their faithful, and kind too. some people are so picky that they end up alone for the rest of their life. Like for example if the person doesn't like every single thing that they like than they don't want anything to do with them. I think its hard enough just finding a good harded person. I don"t believe that you have to have everything in common with eachother. My parents have been married for 56 years and they don't have anything in common! Can you believe it?

By the way, I too have a phobia of strangers. Can you believe that? This started about 3 years ago. I'm especially nervous to call and ask for information about a very important service that will cost me to loose alot of money if I don't throughly check them out. For example calling a dentist office for information, an attorney, or applying for a job, etc. Its because most of the time they are in a rush and get annoyed and act rude when I ask detailed questions. I'll procrastinate for aleast a week before calling. I don't go places as often as I use to either. Also thoughs big black water bugs that look like roaches but are as large as beetles give me the heeby geebies!

i too have Poly cisic ovarian syndrome which means you are infertile as well as having ovarian cists. If your not sure you have it than I think a sonogram will show it if you do. This is how the doctor determined I had it.

Yes I believe your right about the government being mostly at fault for allowing this corruption to go on. I also believe that me along with many other people on this forum should find ways to make our voices heard that these crimes has to stop!!!

I'll be praying for you so that the OCD will subside and get better.