Hello megam,

I'm so sorry to read your post and find that you are feeling so poorly. Please know that your life is very important.
Every person on this earth is here for a reason. You are made in the image of God. He cares immensely for you. In fact, over 2,000 years ago Jesus died on the cross so that you and all who believe in Him, will live eternally in heaven one day.
Things are really getting bad in this world. That is an indication that 'the end times' are getting closer. May I suggest that you read Psalm 23, in the Bible. At least once a day. I hope you will find comfort for your soul by reading the Word of the living God. Bless you!

I will pray for you. "You are loved with an everlasting love and underneath are His everlasting arms." Abigail