I do know what you mean. Those other methods of birth control are not healthy. And I hear you with the anxiety and fears. I suffer from a lot of that too. I do hope that gets better for you.
Mainly, stay informed and in contact with others in your situation helps.
Basically, the condom and abstinance are about it. There is the old fashioned calendar method but you have to be pretty predictable and regular and it's only 60% effective.

Try to concentrate on your own recover at this point. The rest will fall into place after.