Hi TGoss.

What you describe sounds a lot like OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). This has been associated with mercury poisoning.

I started to get these thoughts when I was about 10. They crept up on me slowly after I started having fillings, along with the physical symptoms. My anxiety got worse and worse until by the age of 12 I had OCD. I was anxious 24/7 and had very little control of my thoughts. I used to be sick with worry when my parents would go out and was constantly terrified of disasters and such happening. I would cry a lot and everything was frightening. I also had a phobia of germs and would have to make sure everything was clean. I couldn't go to bed until everything was in it's right place. I would sit in school assembly ringing my hands and I had very little interest in my appearance and things like that as I spent the whole day just worrying about everyone. Those were terrible years.

This got better when I stopped gettiing the fillings, had my braces out and became a vegetarian (no longer ate seafood) but anxiety and phobias still plague me as well as compulsion to blink, which comes and goes. I get panic attacks in lots of situations and often need to double or triple check things. I have a lot of phobias and this makes social and romantic relationships difficult. I wake up with panic attacks in the night sometimes and have to put the light on. If I get intrusive thoughts I try to force them out and take control. Alginate has helped a little the past few months.

I used to be a very confident child who loved to talk and perform in front of people, but after I got fillings I became very withdrawn and suicidal a lot.

I do believe mercury is responsible for what happened to me, and is why I still get so many phobias. I am hoping it will lessen when I get the fillings replaced.