I had my sixteenth DMPS infusion this morning. Afterwards I had 10 grams of IV vitamin C. I mentioned the possibility of getting 50 grams like you recommended, Russ, but the doctor thought that was too much. So far, so bad. I feel like I'm dying and I wish that I would. Actually, Saturday was a pretty good day but I fell apart yesterday from severe panic attacks.

Here is a big question that no one can answer. Even if I get well, is there anything left to live for? At 42 I'm too old to ever have a normal life. Of course I might be thinking that way because I'm sick to begin with. What do you think?