Thanks for your very long and complete post, Demi. I am fond of seafood and in light of what I know now I am going to cut way back on my seafood intake. {/quote}

This could well be your prime souce of mercury. I used to eat a lot of tuna as a child, and it is loaded with mercury. I would agree with Steve and say cut it out completely if you can, but I know that is easier said than done. I know that dairy isn't good for people with mercury poisoning, but I am having a hard time following a strictly vegan diet as I love chocolate and cheese. I am trying though, as I know it is better for me if I can resist the cravings <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

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I am in terrible pain now and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. At this point I really don't want to go on living. Like you I am a Christian but I don't know how much longer I can go on.
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I understand. I feel the same very often. I am suffering a lot at the moment too and sometimes it feels like the future is hopeless. I still get suicidal thoughts at least 3 times a week and I cry a lot. But now that we know what is causing our suffering, there is every hope that we can get better. I try to look at it from the view that we've got through the worst. When we are less toxic, we will see a brighter future. When I was a child I didn't think I could take anymore. I just wanted to be like other kids. I wanted to be able to get out of bed and go downstairs for breakfast like a regular kid, but I'd have to do rituals first. I would sometimes be crying while doing them. It was hell those years. But I did get improvement and I am optimistic I will again. I'm glad I didn't kill myself at 14 when I was the most serious of doing it.


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After the third DMPS infusion all of my symptoms were aggravated and I became intensely suicidal. I know that there is a lot of controversy regarding the use of DMPS but from my own research I found that it's probably the best chelating agent for mercury. I think that I detoxified too fast during the first round of infusions. If I do badly this time I'm thinking about dropping back to biweekly infusions. What do you think?