Could be insulting God, himself? Strangely, your assessment of the situation doesn't really scare me.
Maybe it is your lack of faith in God, shown by going to doctors and buying healing drugs and cures, that keeps you from being completely healed. Maybe it is your lack of belief in Christ as the healer that makes your walk fraught with struggles to curb your anger.
What parts of the Bible do you consider as parable, symbolism, or metaphor? What evidence do you have that supports your assessment that those portions are not literal history or completely factual? God made the universe. If there is something in that universe that seems to contradict our interpretation of His Word, then our interpretation is wrong.
The biblical quotes I gave should be a wake up call to all of us - particularly those who practice heresy but so often the very people in serious states of sin who show lack of fear, reverence for God and the fact we will indeed be punished for our misdeeds.
As for your personal comments regarding my sufferings/sickness - one wonders how low you're willing to go? Are personal sufferings and attempts at natural remedies now a means for you to use against a person - are you really this desperate?
I would hope that God would expect us to use means to help ourselve also, rather than sit around crying/moaning/praying and expecting Him to perform a miracle (which at one point was a lengthy learning process i had to go through), when He maybe waiting for us to learn a few things and in that learning, help others. Using good food and supplements does not indicate a lack of faith. Though I don't deny my faith was tested and still is. I just try to look after the body God gave me, I see no sin or lack of faith involved with that at all.
It also has little to do with my point on altering/down-grading the words of scripture...not sure how this fits in with heresy?
Anyway, let's outline some of this:
is it lack of faith to consume foods that are natural and healthful? Is it lack of faith to use the herbs that God provided for us? Is it lack of faith to use ones intellect and also find means to help ourselves, as God has also provided? Is it a lack of faith when I use my experience to try and help others? Is it a lack of faith to take advice from others in regards to natural medicine?Isn't it also a part of God's plan to have us improve our knowledge, even in disease, some of which we may have deserved by lifestyle? Isn't part of experiencing sickness and suffering the walk also of a Christian? It is how we respond that is the key. Not simply gaining a cure from God, because we expect it. That is up to Him, both the ifs and the whens. He knows what is best for us and the right timing. For all I know, physical healing at this point may not be good for me for reasons only God understands, but again I don't know. In the meantime, I pray, I hope, and I treat the body he gave to me as best as I can.
Isn't it also a reminder of the cross we as Christians are expected to carry? So perhaps, even with our efforts, we may not be able to get rid of certain crosses in our lives. God knows best. But does that mean we should quit bothering?
Part of suffering for sinful creatures is a great reminder to us that this world is temporary. God performs miracles when He wishes, to whom He wishes and how He wishes, which may or may not comply with what we think is best. I have been witness to a supernatural miracle overseas amongst thousands of people. Should I assume because others haven't seen this that it means "lack of faith"? And that if they had faith, they'd see what I saw? Why did I see it, when I was even LESS faithful then than I am now?
If it is due to lack of faith that I am not healed, only God can be the ultimate judge of that - I am not certain. I have prayed and have certainly hoped, but perhaps being human and flawed, it's highly possible that it may have been that. I don't know. I help myself as much as I can under the circumstances, and I'm sure God would expect to do so.
Without my faith in God, I may have ended my life. Because of my faith in God, somehow I hung in there and the state of some of the suffings were enough to have driven me almost insane many times. So there must have been faith there for sure! Without Him, I'd not be here, that I am quite certain of.
No matter what state my faith is in, what state my health is in, His words abideth forever and do not alter. Regardless of my human flaws and struggles - I'm well aware His words are truth. I accept them as stated, even if my faith at times is tested. So were the disciples faith! Did you forget that one?
