Jammes, thanks for your help. I need to chelate. I think that is your point. All of us do. I haven't for a long time. I make excuses and now work at least during the school year. I intend to try, perhaps, a weekend schedule with the low low dosages the website in Europe sells. That should help. (Or at least during summers to start). I tried to do it too fast and furious and then had kidney reactions. Actually it wasn't bad for me other than that, but I seemed aggressive, too, and have to watch that when I'm working with kids. I'm also peri-menopausal and do think you can treat things nutritionally to a degree. I was on Frequent Dose and Adult metal chelation websites (Andy's protocol) for a couple years when I lived in AK and then for a while after moving here 5 years ago and there were some folks who swore by Modifilan (a super seaweed) or even just high mineral usage to displace the mercury. I never quite formed an opinion on the best way to handle it cause I tend to think Mother Nature has the answers and prefer natural to a chemical, (but also believe that knowledge is God given (chelating compounds). I think Sean has talked about that (the minerals) if I understood right. Anyway, some people need to detox IMO first because they are so clogged, etc. they couldn't eliminate the mercury and that would be dangerous. Personally I use to cleanse regulary at least till I lived in AK where the cold made it harder. I guess for the past 10 years I've only done it here and there but did it quite regularly before that for 20 years or so which has likely helped keep my symptoms somewhat in check if I take good care. But health is more of an uphill battle as we get older, too. Anyway - your point is well taken. I personally need to chelate again.

As far as psyche meds some really need it. But I was put on Elavil for chronic pain when I hurt my back when I was 31. It did help me sleep, but I decided to get off it after a couple years cause it dulled my perception of life, feelings, etc., (and is known to cause intraocular pressure changes and I found out I am a glaucoma suspect with enlarged nerves and cupping and also have a family hx). It took me a full year to get off that crap!! Not technically addictive, buy my chemistry had adapted and I had to wean down really slow to get off it. One night I remember going into withdrawal writhing on the bed like a junkie till my husband brought me a pill and the symptoms went away. I did finally get off it but even though I wasn't put on it for depression, I sure was a head case getting off it! I suppose I'm leery of them for me. My mom has been on one since right before my brother died which she hasn't coped real well about so its likely good in some respects for her. Keeps her a little numb. I was tried, again, on Cymbalta (I think?), though, for pain issues again and I had horrible side effects. I sweated profusely at night which was intolerable for me so not an option, but I don't want to be on them anyway.

I bought some probiotics last night and this morning was up quite early going to the bathroom off and on quite a bit. I'd been bloated so know they are already doing something good. My mental outlook is also MUCH improved today. I drove my husband out of the house (by how I was reacting to him) yesterday but it melted away for some reason. I felt love for him for the first time since I've been feeling this way. Weird. (I feel the spirit again, too. I had an all around bad attitude).

I really appreciate all of y'alls support about this. I go so much better before cutting out sugar and its amazing the difference. I'm not too far off track, but plan to get back to how I got before. Not even sure what happened. I'm chalking this up to a learning experience. My will is back to being there again. Thanks you guys. Its amazing how far reaching helping one person can be. I feel like me again and want to be there for the people around me again. I was insane. Thats the only word for it. Granted I've had some real stress, some real issues that have built up, but my reactions were not normal. I feel more attractive again even. Amazing. (Not a real happy camper when I don't feel good about myself either). THANK YOU~!~ I'm so glad I stayed on here. Thanks for keeping me on Russ..... (Or putting me back : ).