I've got to admit that I've wondered about this, too. Russ, I asked you in another post and if you responded I never saw it, but you promote Andy Cutler's detox protocol of chelators and method yet have never used them that I understand.... So I don't think you've rid yourself of your load, either. I know I haven't. I think partly why I've fared pretty well even though I have a heavy body burden is perhaps how health conscious I have been since my early 20s. I couldn't count all the cleanses and detoxes I USE to do. (And need to do that again and more). I tend to get bored focusing on my illnesses, but also think doing so can give them power. Understanding them and staying motivated is one thing....but for instance, even though I have fibromyalgia I don't think of myself that way or keep telling myself I have it. (However my back issues do not allow me to ignore them....I have to be careful or I could hurt myself further and am delicate). I function though - I work.... I am limited, (and performing physical tasks like too much housework is hard due to back issues) but it gives me a mental boost to get out. I suppose I draw energy from the kids, too. I can go in bummed out and go to school and start smiling and lose myself in "serving" or thinking about others because, with teenagers, you have no choice : ) That is a universal principle, too, though..... Losing yourself thinking about and or doing for others does more for you than even those you "serve" or as much at least. On a side note there, the serving needs to come from pure motives. One thing I do not do is take meals to people like most women at church think of as service. That is not how I serve. To do so stresses me out so I don't do that willingly normally as a rule although if I feel its truly needed and DO feel inspired to do it on my own - not because I've been asked - it does feel good : ) I'm not saying that is a problem with anyone here - but one other issue to consider is that both you and Bex, Russ, are single. I guess my point has to do more with a feeling of connectedness and folks with mercury toxicity do for some reason seem to have issues with that due to social anxieties or just not feeling well or whatever. My husband can be a huge pain in the butt....he has been lately more than I felt I could even deal with a couple days ago. Due to some of his issues, he sometimes doesn't sleep well and to not keep me up, too, he sleeps in the guest room off and on. Last night he slept with me just cause he missed me. I'm not talking about sex, either. I slept so cozy just knowing he was next to me.... I needed to feel physically close to him. We also need touch. (Again - not talking sex). You can see people visibly relax, sometimes, when you just touch their arms, etc. Its a human need. We need petted sometimes Anyway - although he has been a pain, my hubby is a sweetheart. He just has issues stemming from his early childhood that he cannot help. Some things he can, but he's trying to remedy them. (And its really all about heaing right now). Not too many would have seriously taken him on knowing what I did but I have a strong need to be needed. Maybe it helps me feel secure. I guess the point is, though, that even with the stress he brings on a lot, having him as part of my life definitely fills a void that would be there otherwise. Its a documented fact that married people live longer. I'm not trying to promote that necessarily, but loneliness can DEFINITELY be a factor in healing as well. (Not to be too personal). I am going through separation anxiety from my children. My oldest married almost a year ago now and I felt like a part of me had been ripped out cause she married someone from out of state - but we are close by phone and I've adjusted. (And she was away for college anyway). My youngest is a senior now and will also be going out of state. So I will have an empty nest without them even being near and its about killed me at times - but they are and still will be (and moreso in the future again hopefully) part of my life along with the families they create. There is something to be said about family in what ever form it is in (other than "unnatural" ones).... Growing old together. I still feel a need to "check out my market value" sometimes as a friend from Germany once called it.... : ) But its nothing but ego reassurance. I get that my husband needs that, too, although not as much any more. He is getting to be an old fart : ) Right now a cranky old fart : ) (But a sweet one). I'm rambling and getting off on a lot of different tangents. Sorry. The long winded point, though, is it is healthier to reach outside comfort levels - maybe open the door to relationships more IN PERSON. They're worth the investment and even risks. I still say you two ought to hook up somehow : ) (Bex and Russ). I'm sure you're already friends, though, and really that is what we need. We should ideally be married to our best friends. Sometimes, to be honest, I've felt like being on here is only negative support - but for the most part I feel a bond with many of you on here and the support means a lot to me. I need to put my money where my mouth is too, though, and let down some walls myself. I don't do much socially other than work. I need to....

Of course I'm not trying to downgrade any physical issues. Only bringing up the point that emotions, etc. also play a huge part in the physical, too. Huge... Even in resistance and immunity. There could be an element of depression.... We love you on here, though. I think every one of us should be more sensitive to what we say to each other. I think the reason Linear and many of the evolutionists get antagonistic is due to defensiveness or feeling rebellious from being told they're bad or whatever. If anything - we all need to hear and know our self worth which is "great in the sight of God." We are all more sensitive and need each other more than we may even admit to ourselves. (Enough for my soapbox : )