bexy ure making me feel so depressed but I realise it's a sad real possibility what ure saying. i may be in idealistic denial, but i refuse to believe we are THAT sensitive to it, I mean we are MUCH MUCH MORE sesitive to those toxins (genetically) but once someone has recovered fully and been better than ever before - like in russ's case - and takes care of his health MUCH better than most people then the body should handle the ongoing exposure.
plus the fact that we all have normal cbc's, thyroid panels etc etc so normal values of all those basic things, tells me things cannot be fully permanently damaged, that the body should heal non the less. If anything, there is a 'leftover' of the problem but not permanent damage per se. i like what u said about imune response, very wise, that after years our immune ystsem is sensitized. But if thats the case there are alternatve approaches of desensitizing the immune system, at any rate i believe something can be done. and russ will never know if he doesnt fid out, like do a round of ala.

i also wanna believe this is what's happening to u (and me i guess) bex, something to scewed up, but it's fixable problem is finding what is the 'leftover' problem of years of amalgam illness, thats the real challenge.

but i probbaly am being idealistic and naive too, i guess i have to believe in recvery otherwise i can just go and blast my brains out.