Sigh...

I have no where to go... my parents won't belive me...
They say that i have to go to an ordinary "doctor" to get help with my symptoms if they really are indicating such dangerous illnesses that i describe...

I try to tell em that it's no use, but they won't listen....
I need money to get into a special detox clinic in the USA or something, if they even exist....

I don't want to develope MS or something like that....
I'm also affraid to get stuck with vertigo, and my back pains..
I have pain in my right body and head side, but not on the left... which indicated stroke or MS... And i had a "whiteout" / allmost blackout, that instinctively reminded of a stroke.... the last week...

So after that, i got vertigo and.....

I know that it's normal to manifest all those diseases that mercury is the underlaying cause of, during the time after amalgam removal...

But what scares me is that some will eventually get well after these cycles, but som get stuck in one specific disease and then go to the "doctor" and for example gets a diagnose of MS...... And then the only cure is to chelate.....
But to chelate alone is dangerous, and i'm scared....

Is there cheleation clinics around the world?
And what is the cost?
Does people get help from those?

I'm tired of fighting this fight alone....
Everyone locally here except my GF is a complete IDIOT that don't believe the corruption of the official health system...

They won't believe me.... There is no help besides how i help my self.. and i'm tired... I only see small betterments by them selves in me....
I'm affraid i won't get better, but my GF says that it looks like i have gotten a little better over the past 2-3 weeks now... but i don't see it that clearly.. Well i feel some betterment, but at the same time, other things manifest... or.....

Some get better by them selves with time, but some will get stuck...

I'm affraid.... I want to function again!

Will it take me 10yrs or more too, as many other unlucky souls?
Or will these symptoms go away be them selves over time.....

As i say, i feel some betterment, but...... They are so small that it doesn't feel like progress....

This is normal after drillout yes? I know they are, but....
What if i retoxed my brain with the chlorella???
Then i won't get better, will i?

I'we heared of people that drilled out both 4 and 5 fillings (unprotected), and didn't get as ill as i have gotten. So then it couldn't be my little finedrilling of the amalgam that was left after main drillout, that made me sick (protected drillout, with unprotected fine drillouts afterwards)...

It must have been the chlorella!?
But then if it is.... I'we retoxed myself so badly that i have to chelate or else i will get stuck?

And what scares me is that they say that the brain doesnt detox on its own....
Well... not a atleast a little over time???

Sigh...

Why me.......
I want to live!
I want to live with good helath!

I don't want to accept an official diagnose of for example MS some time in the future now....

All because of amalgam drillout, and chlorella error....

Sigh...

The good things in all this is....

I don't have that much shortness of breath, and i can walk, and think, and remember, but not optimally. And i'm not fatigued as much as i were...
I infact has so much energy that i can cope for a whole day...
And i eat, but hasnt got much apetite... I have ridden the constipation...

So that is well...

But, i have vertigo, and pains in my right side of my body, and migraines now and then..... And i have "micro" fatigues at the evenings....

I'we also tested my self's tollerance to multivitamines, and they make me feel worse..

So the first day after vitamins, i still have migrain and heavy vertigo, but the next day the migrain is allmost nonpresent, but the vertigo persists... lesser yeah, but still persists...

Day 3, i havent gotten to without vitamins yet.. so i dont know...

But.... Don't i need those vitamins and minerals to avoid fatigue, and to support the body's natural chelation capacity? They say i have to... But i can't tollerate those vitamins... I'm affraid to fall into fatigue if i don't take em...

Will a normal, but full diet without artificial vitamins keep me going?
Will i get better with time?

Or will i get stuck with.. for example MS? or vertigo forever until i chelate properly with f.ex DMSA??


I can't take this more now....
Well i can, but i don't want to fight this alone....

No one to turn to but you guys...
Not doctors, not.......

I have my GF yes, but she doesn't read...
She only takes my words for it... And see me daily and supports me, but as i said.. she doesn't read... So i have no one to reflect my logical question to...

I have no security... No confirmations around my theories, no disconfirmations, but from you guys...

No doctors (again) to turn to... Parents that doesn't belive the corruption in the med system....


I'm alone... but i have you guys.. but you are not here...

We should have been together at a detox clinic if they exists...
but money.....

Affraid i won't get better....


I stand alone.... atleast locally where i stand...
Me....... the only real intelligent soul in miles......

And now i need other intelligent souls to conference with...
And there are.... But you guys are far away...
We all are far away from each others....

Tell me...
Am i just going thru natural healing crisis?
Is that all?
Am i getting better?! (but slowly)


Is my right body side pains only due to that i removed a filling on the right side the last time i drilled?

Because of the magnetic fields that was altered on my right body side?
Those symptoms also indicate stroke amongst others...

No help at the "doctors" office... i won't even try...
But isn't it dangerous to avoid the "doctors" if i manifest a dangerous disease?
I know those diseases i manifest i because of the recent mercury removal, and or due to the chlorella episode, but i know they "doctors" won't belive that...

So what is the point in going to a "doctor"... To get a diagnose for everything else than mercury poisoning, and to get meds (pharma) for that bullshit disease?

I didn't suddenly out of the blue get MS and or vertigo just by chance just after an amalgam drillout, now did i? NO!

It is the mercury.... But the doctors won't listen...
So I'm alone... I am the only one in my "clan" who read.... Does research.... Connects with people like you.... Searches....

Im F...... alone!

I SO HATE DUMB SOULS!!!
I'm annoyed with my parents for not educating themselves when they were young, and denied my vaccines and dental amalgams when i was young...


THEY SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN ALOWED TO HAVE HAD CHILDREN!!!
Well they are there for me... Yes.. But they won't understand the real stuff.. the real cause... They won't listen to me...
They know that i got like this after the amalgam removal, yes, but they still want me to go to an ordinary doctor if things get seriously ill.
And i try to educate them how and why the "system" is corrupt, but the won't listen... It's like they understand that i got this way after amalgam drillouts, but still think i ought to go to a "doctor" for those symptoms i now manifest.. to get a diagnose and a "cure" for that wrong diagnose with the doctor...

It's like they partly see it, but won't awaken completely!
Are they just in denial?

WHY ARE THEY SO DUMB!? Why can't they see the real picture for what it IS?!!

Bourne by idiots, raised by idiots..... surrounded by idiots in my local community...

IM SICK OF IT!!!!



I want to get well naturally by my self over time (short time) to regain my health and to restart developing my webshop and then earn me enough money to start more companies and then to get enough money to travel the world and connect with other SMART souls, and then be happy with life, and not have to be alone surrounded by idiots no more!!

That is how i feel!
And that is my goal!

But did i destroy for myself by making the wrong choise to drill out that amalgam?
And, or, did i take a wrong step when trying chlorella?
A fatal an permanent one?

Will i again take the wrong step and make things even worse if i decide to try DMSA?! I'm so afraid to make things worse now....
But to wait and see if things get better by themselves?? When i know that others has gone over 10yrs and not gotten better?!!!!

To try DMSA, or to wait and see... then if not better, to try DMSA or to avoid it, not getting better at all....

Yes, i take the sorrows prematurly... I know.. But its hard to look forward with ceratinties when other fall, even when trying....


God, i beg for forgiveness for what i may have done wrong in this life!

What the F. have i done to deserve this!!!!??

Mercury in my vaccines and in my teeth wasnt my choise!
It was out of MY control before i grew up and got to decide for myself...
But now it is to late!?

Is it?

Without taking a huge risk with dangerous chelators!?

I don't want to make things worse again... If infact i indeed did some real damage with chlorella....

But i don't want to go on with these symptoms and pains either, which may not go away if i don't chelate!?


I don't know...
Even Andy Cutler says people can get well on their own....
If i understood him right...

But in which group am i?
The lucky self healing over time group?
Or in the group that never heals without chelation?

Only time will tell... But now.. The trust in "time heals all illnesses" is not so much present.. only a little... (hope), And the fact that it seems that im progressing, but slowly.. but I'm not sure.... The days are long... I won't know for sure for another month maybe... But now..... I want to know now!! If i'm getting better...



Sigh...

I'm sure some of you, if not all of you can indentify with some of these thoughts...

I don't know...

They say faith can move mountains.. And yes.. they can...
But why then do people get, and die from MS.... for example..
Do they not have faith...

Is faith and reality two diffrent things?!

I so regret deciding to remove those amalgams...
I so regret it.....
I so regret that chlorella...

Atleast, i regret it, if i don't get better...

Afterwards ofcourse if and when i get better, then i won't regret it..

But that is a big IF!!!

Will i regret trying DMSA too? if i try it?! Will it then be even more too late?!


My ego says it is a big certain WHEN i get well!

But realisticly........


Bex... please throw a couple of bible verses at me.....

I need motivation... i need faith...

I need.... To get well!


Jesus is KING!!

Halalujah!