Hi Ole, well I consider the flaws we have simply the result of the fall. That's how I see it and Satan taking advantage of this and using many humans as puppets to inflict a lot of suffering on others by toxins such as these on our much more vulnerable conditions. Some withstand it much better than others admittedly, but only to a point.

Nobody is immune, but I see some value in suffering also. I've gotten much closer to a God I barely had time for before. sad but true! But not without alot of anger and fist shaking along the way and hate too I admit that. Cursing? Yes, I can be accused of this. I feel sick to think back, but then so many times I was in such a mercury torment, I honestly don't know how much was the real "me" or a manipulated poisoned "me".....not that I'm excusing it, but I can gain a bit more understanding of those going through the same.

I somehow held onto Him, or at least always went back to Him in the end. Knowing that doing without him not only didn't help matters, but made things worse, more empty, more dead and detached. A worse condition even than what my sickness was doing. Sometimes it's our reactions to our circumstances that may make things even worse. Though, try telling that to a person in a state of extreme torment/suffering. I just could not be consoled sometimes or logically spoken to. That's what this stuff does. At times, I swear it was like I was possessed. I was risky to be around in those mercury rages/torment. There are in fact a couple of holes in my bedroom wall and door from the rages.

Take care!