Hi Katson,

Yes, I understand this completely. The suffering from mercury, including when it's being shifted around, can be diabolical. It is a diabolical poison afterall. One that can reduce anybody to a dribbling mess (depending on level of toxicity/sensitivity).

Every round can differ from the other. Depending on where the mercury is at the time and many other things I'm sure. You can have good rounds, bad rounds, shattering rounds and on it goes. I think this is the painful side of it, because it's unpredictable. Even when you THINK you're ready to take it on, once it hits, it can be intolerable.

The feeling of doom, or that nothing is going to improve, is quite normal. Suicidal thoughts - normal. It is awful because even the most positive of people can become suicidal with this poison. It is often a slow and painful ongoing process. The sense of things never ending and the person wanting to die can become overpowering.

ALA does not tend to suppress symptoms at all (DMSA can). Emotional symptoms tend to be common with ALA and fearfulness etc can occur. Oddly enough, so can euphoria! But again, it's apparently more an emotional type of response, as well as increased depression, anxiety etc. This could well mean you're on the right track, but you may need to reduce your dose if you're taking too much. You may also need to warn other people, because they may need to know if you are in a really vulnerable state like this and may need to understand that you are trying to detox.

When you can respond, could you let me know what dose you're on? I'd be interested to know. Some have to take as low as 6 mg. I hope you're going to be ok. Do not keep going if you feel you're risking yourself too much. Rounds can be stopped if that is the case.

Increased symptoms are unfortunately expected and the more poisoned you are, the worse they will be. Any symptom is possible with mercury. Loss of appetite, excessive appetite (gain/loss of weight), terrors, phobias, passiveness/aggression. It just plays the emotions/mind/body like an instrument. Some suffer more than others.