I'm sorry for your marital difficulties. I've seen first hand that some partners are able to cope with illness in their spouse and be a rock, but others can't handle it very well.

It would be nice to have some support (my family and friends are not unsupportive, but not exactly supportive either as they don't want to face that I am poisoned so don't like me to talk about it) but it must be harder to be in a marriage and have to deal with negativism from a partner. Sounds to me like he needs to be a more loving and considerate husband rather than you a better wife. None of us chooses to have health problems. We'd all like to be fit as a fiddle!

My panic attacks are a problem in friendships etc generally and I find that some people cope with me better than others. Usually those who get anxiety themselves understand better. Also those who are better able to empathise and are less selfish personalities cope better with me and appreciate me despite my problems. I don't know how much my phobias will improve, I'm hoping somewhat, but it would have to be a very patient and understanding man to marry me, and I know a man like that is rare jewel. I also presently have physical limitations (one leg has limited mobility because of hip socket problem) so altogether there are lots of things a man would have to deal with, so while I haven't given up hope that one day I will meet someone, I'm being realistic too and accepting that not everyone would be able to cope with my problems.

Thanks for the encouragement <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I think I need to start taking some B6 and B12, especially being a vegetarian. Some protein supplement would probably help also. I take some magnesium, but not every day, so I should probably start taking it. I've started taking alginate, and I think it is helping already <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />