thx Bex..you've made me feel more optimistic! Also I believe The merc is in my spine and causing spasming etc. seems to have it's own mind...I will be mobile enough to get out of bed to a sitting position at times and the next attempt I will be in full spasm/paralysis, legs bolt straight and rigid! It doesn't seem to be triggered by anything at all. I've come to believe it's just movement of merc in the spinal cord...so need to clear this...if I could reach my own spine I would even try clay directly on it. any ideas?