Yes it is difficult, it's not what I envisioned nor wanted. But when you've been sick for so long and suffered social phobias/anxieties etc, it can sadly become something one gets quite accustomed to. You get USED to being single. Even if I wanted to, I am not well enough to seek a relationship. My health is unstable. IF it happened? That's great, but I would not envy the person having to deal with somebody that stays mainly at home because they don't feel well enough.

I'm not actively seeking because getting through each day at times is more than enough and frankly it's a tough call for anybody to be with a person that has such unstable health and isn't overly socially active. I'd also doubt myself as being a fit Mother too. I'm not sure. I struggle badly doing Kindergarten teaching (training).

lol, I'm sure Russ has had a number of offers and attempts at hooking him up. My view is, if it happens with anybody it will happen. I leave that to God. I don't see either lifestyle as being superior to the other necessarily. It's not easy being single, there are lonely times and difficulties, but is it easy being married and bringing up a family? There are crosses to both I think. And there is value to both if one does something with their life to help another.

It hurts at times yes, but the way I am, my life etc has become this way over a long time. I'd like to be with someone, but I'm not on the hunt and I really don't want to be in that position to feel I should. Other times I like being alone. People think I'm strange, and that's ok I guess. I'm just not into the dating scene. If it's God's will that something happens at some stage in my future? Great. If not? Then I'll deal with it. I'd like to be healthier and fitter and perhaps I'd be out there persuing.

But the single life does become something one eventually gets accustomed to. It's hard to imagine living with someone else in a relationship, when you're not used to it.