I am sorry to hear that Wormwood. Ugh I don't even know what to tell you.

I certainly don't recommend taking SSRI's. Sometimes long term they can make things a lot worse.

Maybe just talking to someone is what you need. Find a therapist that doesn't prescribe pills and see what they can do for you. A few years ago I was an emotional wreck. I had a terrible trauma in my life when I was 17, which was eating me alive. Finally, I was able to talk about it and it helped me tremendously.

I guess I'm trying to say, perhaps there is more to your emotional problems than toxins. A bad childhood, stressful job or even relationship problems can really take a toll on someone. Just make sure that you aren't having emotional problems due to some sort of issue in the past or current times.

Good luck!!