Bex, I really appreciate the insights and honesty you show. I do see what you are saying. The only thing I meant as far as raptors was that you both came at me with it at once and I was just picturing a 2 sided attack....(velociraptors.... : )

No I am not innocent either of retort and have not been sqeaky clean... : ) I am not expecting people to agree with me... I totally respect other's right NOT to, but I only ask I not be told WHAT I believe or am by others and that they, at least, approach me personally with a desire to understand rather than hurl insults. You are not guilty of that... I feel dumb even being upset about it on an online forum where I may never see faces, but it really did bother me to think of YOU ganging up on me along with them. I am new to this...fray..as its called. I've had fun with it at times, but I am not a game player. I pretty much wear my heart on my sleeve. In a guarded way, perhaps. I do have smart aleck tendencies.... (And rebel tendencies...I buck the "system" whatever it may be. Definitely not a conformist!!). Ironically, I've gotten a kick out of SS's posts and her smart aleck comments. I just think they need to be tempered.

I can see where some members have shown more than one face.... There are some mind games being played on here because being online gives you that luxury. CTD tried to warn me, but I'm not stupid. I can see that. I just figure they have their reasons if truly doing that. And as far as CTD.... I have been kind of mean. He didn't so much hurt me as royally piss me off with how he talked to me. I would've slapped him if I'd been in his presence. My husband pretty much treats me like a queen and I really don't think any of us women deserve any less than that. To be talked to by a guy like that I will not stand for! But, CTD, if you read this, I'm sorry for my part in provoking you....

Personally I'm letting this go. I have kind of swung in each direction and I'm pretty much ending up in the middle again where my hormones are also right now : )

I'm going out of town alone with my husband tomorrow. That will do me good.... I apologize if I've seemed a bit schizo lately : ) Yes - being ill does impact negatively sometimes. I have to be so careful working. I'm responsible for these kids self esteem in some ways. They are so precious... They soak love up like a sponge and I don't think any of us deserve any less than to be careful of how we affect each other. I will be more careful on here and think we all should be. I doubt it will get me anywhere with SS, but I am sorry for any heartburn I've caused her as well. It was not my intent to get her in trouble. I just wanted the falsehoods and, yes, persecution, to stop. I did not deserve it.

Anyway - I appreciate the tone of your email Bex. You melted my heart : ) Thank you.....