I never even imagined being a teacher other than when playing teacher as a kid, but if I do decide to finish my degree it will be in special ed : ) I feel energy from these kids and, for the most part, feel happy with them, too. I guess needed.... and I need to be needed.

You can do this. It won't be instant. Have you seen an endocrinologist? My thyroid results were really weird when I first started having problems (both hyper and hypo) but there were no endo's in Alaska. Once we got here I started trying some and the first couple were worthless for me. I love the one I have now. He use to be a chemical engineer so really understands things that way. He also listens and prescribes bio-identical hormones. He actually asked ME questions about mercury and will call me back personally. My kind of Doctor! Maybe it wouldn't hurt to look into hormonal issues that could've been brought on by the steroids, though. Those are powerful. You likely have.... I can remember the obsession of just wanting to know if I was pregnant after trying. I know it has to be an emotional roller coaster to have been through what you have been... We do have to have respect for mercury, too. Its power.... But I admire your spirit. Keep on keeping on. You're going to have a lot of ups and downs with this too. That is what these forums are for. : )