Jeanie,
I guess that emotional stuff is coming up today too. I cry for no reason every couple of hours. I thought when I was first going through this - I guess because I felt better emotionally at first - I thought I could pull this off. I read alot of the posts here about suffering and feeling crappy and I thought it wouldn't happen to me and I could be strong and fight it. HAHA! Mercury is a powerful thing - it got its grip on me today but soon I will overcome it - i have to think that way I can't let IT take hold of me. It has been 6 long years of baby wishing for me - at first it was horrible. I wasn't as sick and became obsessed about getting pregnant. Being a teacher everyone at school was pregnant but me. It was hard - we did fertility treatments which only weakened my body more. I got sicker from them and they messed my hormones up. I don't think my husband every understood how painful it was for me - he is so laid back and nothing really bother him. i, on the other hand, have always wanted to be a mommy. WIth each passing year, my dream seemed to get further and further away. I never could understood why God wouldn't give me a baby - I would make such a good mom. Now I know why - it wasn't the right time. My faith has grown so strong over the past 3 years. I'm not mad at Him anymore - rather I praise him for giving me the knowledge and means to find the strength and courage to carry on. I would be nothing without God. And I know now, without a doubt, that my baby is waiting for me. I also have 4 beautiful nieces and 1 nephew who Aunt Gina spoils.

I teach 3rd grade this year. I have taught special ed for 7 years but this year I am tranferring to regular ed 3rd grade. I am so excited. We start Sept 3rd and our school has gotten a new roof so I haven't been able to get in to unpack. I have so much to do! Actually I always feel better when i am in the classroom - I LOVE teaching! It is really hard some days to physically get there but when I do those kids keep my mind off of things and let me look at life through their eyes. I wouldn't do anything else.