I'm not sure if it is much comfort, but no matter what, our bodies will be restored when we are resurrected and we won't have to deal with this garbage anymore. It is comfort to me. I guess I had given up, but I am back to caring again. I have 2 girls - both almost grown now (17 & 20 - the 20 year old is married since December). They are the light of my life. I gave up my own life for theirs pretty much, but they are a great blessing now. I wanted more, though. Miscarried at 41 right before 9-11.... I started hemorrhaging and had to have a D&C to save my life. I didn't want to cause I didn't want to kill the baby if it was alive, but it hadn't had a heart beat at 6 wks. and I had to let them. The Dr. told me there was no way it was living at that point. It was horrible. It was a huge leap of faith even letting myself get pregnant with my back. But I truly believe in the millenial reign we will have that chance again.... Not really sure how that works, but any opportunities denied will be given. If it doesn't work out in the future in this life(not sure how old you are?) you could adopt?? My husband is 55 almost 8 years older than me, but pretty healthy (??) so far. After the miscarriage I decided we are just too old. And my health is too delicate.... Even if I had the baby raising it would be difficult. I put my all into my kids, but not sure I would have it in me quite again. I use to dream I had babies all the time. I couldn't let it go. I really feel bad for anyone who feels unfulfilled that way.... You have a great attitude. I have tears streaming down my face even thinking about it. But now I have a new son-in-law who I haven't spent much time with (they're going to school in ID) but they are coming home for Christmas. She just stopped taking birth control cause it made her sick... They don't feel quite ready for a baby yet, but would welcome one : ) I have to be content with that and am. I use to always get attached to my daughter's boyfriends, though, and adopt them myself. I think its partly why I like subbing. I have lots of sons : ) (And daughters : ) As a teacher I'm sure you know what I mean. Perhaps your place is to be there for THOSE kids. I was actually told by this one boy that he saw me more than his own mom. (And this was as a sub!) I knew him through my daughter and he knew I cared about him. I know I've helped a lot of kids in my small way. Caring goes a long way....