I have been off it before and yes it was hell getting off - you have to wean VERY slowly. I hated to go back on it but the pain was bad and I had tried SO many other things that had given me very bad side effects. I thought the Elavil would have helped the TMJ headaches as it is supposed to calm your nerves but that has not happened. I am grateful to have a break from the constant vulva pain though. I had become suicidial at times from the constant pain. I have a lot of blurred vision but am not sure if it is related to the Elavil, mercury, TMJ, or something else. Who knows anymore what is causing what? I think we all suffer with a lot - just in different ways. I have learned to realize that there is always someone out there that is worse off than you. I am grateful to have a loving family, an awesome job, a beautiful home, a cool dog, and finiancial stability. i can't focus on what I don't have - that would only bring me down more - I will have those things too in due time - health and children. Unfortantely, they are the 2 things that I think are most important to me. I have always wanted kids and was devastated when we weren't able to concieve - now I think it was a blessing because it would be very hard to care for a baby while going through this process. Also, my husband had a massive heart attack last year and had a double bypass so neither of us were in great health. Now we are both restoring our bodies and I know that when all is well enough I will have my baby (girl!).

With God, All Things are Possible. Matthew 19:26