Megamathblaster,
Hang in there, I know how you feel.. I didn't know what was wrong with me and would just feel desperate rocking in the floor like a baby with all these bad feelings. I had negative thoughts about myself worth. I was in a sort of panic mode, like there was no hope or light at the end of a tunnel. It was so horrible to have to go through that week after week... I wasn't strong enough to follow through with my thoughts, but if it was easy, I would have ended it. I've always felt like I wasn't a good hard working person like everyone else. I kept my house, yard and car spotless to prove them wrong, but couldn't work. I couldn't handle normal emotional stress on a job. I was emotionally weak. My family stereo types me as lazy even though my husband has always taken care of the bills and I have always kept everything ship shape. I would do anything to keep from everyday stress of people.. I wanted far away from them (people).

Hang on..... There's hope....now that you know why this is happening....

It's not easy though...

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