hey linda, thx very much for your support.



not much chance, already tried like zillion of times, since I've been to an institution last year I spoke to them how people keep coming back there, and that psychiatric treatment is not a solution, that it's a brain disease, and many patients whom I met there and were diagnosed with mental illness had brain lesions and stuff, and many others had symptoms of candida etc. I also keep telling her that all the new research starts to point to he fact that and menal ilnnesses are brain diseases of different kind. it yields nothing really, cause i've reating that like a hundred of times. see, my mother is a retired nurse and worked like decades with docs and anything they say is like scripture to her, and she keeps saying this stupid cliche that "well i know people with mental illnesses finish collegge and stuff" and I keep saying her that every case is different, that those folks may not have that much of coginitive imprament, and huge memory issues, but just heraing things or stuff and they take the meds and are "fine", but in actuality almost ALL people with negative symptoms (which is basically dementai like mine) are not helped by meds. plus those cause all sort of side ieffects, w8 gain, gyno (something as man I would NEVER want to have) and also... guess what? cognitive impairemnt. and even thsoe folks that are supposedly 'fine' get relapses and even when not they probably not fully 100% themselves. nothing linda. it's like all those things hit wall. I even told her of a t friend of mine who's is now divorcing his bipolar husband to whom she was married for like 20y, because after all those years he was still sick and meds wolsnt help him and couldnt live with him anymore. YET througout all thsoe years she came to the same conclusion, that's not psychological but biochemical, that something's wrong. maybe I can ask that freind of mine to talk to them, still I am SICK of trying toconvince my OWN parents ans ask for understadning like a bloody beggar. expect more of them, and would give more to my own child.


not much chance linda, maybe i can get them to run some more tests and find a doctor, but finding a good holistic doc in poland is almost next to impossible, and with my luck tests will come ok or almost ok, and each such test will bring their closer to their conlusions that they are right. adn even if i do find a doc, from what i gather from differet boards in poland (candida/lyme) tehy still know less than most patients, and will probably dismiss my own findings about my body, and if I try to arue with them I will be the "stubbron , psycholgicially difficult one". Plus money is a great issue, and maybe my parants could invest but they expect it would pay off, and so far it hasn't.

but again thanx for your support linda. and sorry to hear about you feeling bad recently.