MY mother jas just came to me and told me that seeing as I'm looking worse and worse and suffering more and more (not that it has anyrthing to do wrth progressing illness) if i dont start "treatment" (we know exactly which type she meant...) she will go to court and have me committed, I said that she can but if she does that and goes to such extremes I will simply hate them for it (dont really feel like I have a choice). i started arguing with her of course finally yelling cause i cant contain myself anymore like when i was healthier, and actually each time i raised to voice was when she suggested its all in my head, after i had told her that all i want from her is just a little trust in me, well finally she said wat i knew they thought of me all long : "it's all in your head!". and then i smashed two cups over the wall. well they got their proof.

still utimately dont regret it.



ps. oh I know most people are so sick of my ranting, and i really understand that, ao really no need to respond , wont feel offenned may this post just be a testament to how this illness ruins people's lives.