I try to find some calmness in spite of it all even though I feel like
it doesn't have to be like this and I dream of better days as well..

So I hold on to what I can hold on to in the midst of all I can't control.
And that is so hard for me to do.. because I want some control over it all..
I want it ! When ... Now.... The sooner the better...

I think most people want some control over it all as well..
To be able to control their environment.. Control their world in events..
Make it all work out.. Make it all right.. Somehow..

But then there is a time we find out how vunerable we really all are in the face of world events...

This just calm's my heart and gives me so much peace when I can find none..
And in theses days.. Sometimes it can be hard to find..
I have to remind myself .. I can't fix it all.. Though I wish I could..
I really do....

But I dream of a day as well when there will be no more wars in the world ...
Just refuge and strength. And love...
In the midst of my distress....

Psalms 46..

1 .. God is our refuge and strength , very much found to be a help in distresses..

2.. On account of this we will not fear when the earth changes and when mountains are slipping into the heart of the seas.

3.. Let it's waters foam, let the mountains shake in it's swelling .

4.. There is a river , it's channel gladden the city of God, the holy tabernacles of the Most High.

5.. God is in the midst of her; she shall not be shaken ; God will help her at the turning of the morning..

6.. The nations roared ; kingdoms were shaken; He gave forth his voice, the earth melted.

7.. Jehovah of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is a refuge for us.

8... Come behold the works of Jehovah , who sets ruins on the earth;

9... causeing to cease wars to the end of the earth ; He breaks the bow and cuts spears apart ; he burns the chariots in fire.

10.. Be still and know that I am God ! I will be exalted in the earth..

11.. Jehovah of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is a refuge for us.