Jinx, had I not been through similar myself, I would possibly have little to no understanding of the intensity of these kinds of sufferings that some people endure.

When I had mercury, I was a mess, depending on how it affected me and my behaviour was terrible. I appeared to be egocentric, but my thoughts were turned inwards. I cannot quite explain it, but it definitely was not me. However, even then, through efforts, I was able to move forward and detox. When you respond to treatment with healing crisis and/or improvements, it is empowering! Slow healing also returns more and more motivation and mental functionig and positivity.

Some people on this forum, sick as they are, may not be as ill as others and may not suffer from conditions that fail to respond to cleanses/detoxes. Those that do not, will not understand those that do. Had I stayed as I was and detoxed my mercury, I would probably not understand failure to respond Jinx, as any toxin will respond to detox. Plain and simple.

since viral/bacteria infections, life has taken on a new and horrific turn for me. Treatments that once worked, my body fails to respond. THe long term problem is not being dealt with no matter what is done temporarily. You maybe suffering similar from infection, hard to say. You are making efforts, even with an illness that is causing so much distress and lack of motivation. There was a time when even getting out of bed for me was an acheivement, the fact I was getting up and trying to live, was an achievement. Some people may not understand that. IT depends what you have, how badly you have it and how its affecting you.

To respond to treatments over time is a motivation to continue those treatments. If others do not respond the same way, it does NOT mean they are failing or not making efforts. They maybe suffering differently and the problems they have may not respond to detox. Hal Huggins himself even said in cases of cavitations etc, that he has seen people make marathon cleansing efforts, fasting etc, and getting nowhere or little to no results. Infections can do that to a person, they are not the same as drug/alcohol detox or mercury detox. Damage is also not a case of "just detox". Unfortunately it can happen, though the body has an incredible healing power too, which is why we should never give up and keep doing what we can under the circumstances.

But the cause of some of these things maybe a mystery, but does not mean lack of efforts on the sufferers behalf or a case of self pity. Certain conditions can most definitely create mental problems and the appearance of self pity or selfishness and even violent tendencies and negativity. I have been there and still go there, especially if I cheat on my diet and have to recover again.

It has taken me years and years to have any kind of faint acceptance inside and Russ' post made all the sense to me! Thank you Russ. It has taken me THIS long to find any kind of acceptance and faint understanding. I still hate it with every inch of my being, but I'm not eaten up as much. Some kind of resignation I guess, but not in the sense of giving up. I am still in pain, but in another way.

However, if I'm in a toxic torment? All that can go out of the window for me, I'm back being as negative and insane as ever. I have to remember that with some control of symptoms, comes further control and calm in the mind also and a sense of peace inside the spirit. When the other happens, all those things can change very quickly. It is very true that certain sicknesses can even seem to affect the spirit!

Some people are toxic and sick, but they are not as toxic and sick as others on this forum and still manage to do much more for themselves. I've been there and know how it is when you can still do at least that! I've also been in the situation where I've been bedridden or so ill that I could barely sit in a chair and exist.

That's why I can understand this kind of suffering and outbursts.