I swallowed the thermometer when I was FIVE or less. It happened by accident cause I used to see how on american tv you guys had mouth thermometers and i bit on one and swallowed the mercury. In Poland we had armpit thermemters so nobody said dont put it on your mouth, it's toxic.

But u didnt know that did you?

And it's not like 5yolds never go againts what parents say..... and what does a 5yo attitude GOT TO DO with an adults attitude?

But u didn't think of that did u?

Actually i was quite succesfull for my young age , college and had a good job, until candida hit me 4 years ago with hge brain fog, IN SPITE OF WHCIH I kept working aand attempted collegge studyingfor 2 years - hardly self pitty.

But i didnt know that did you?

and NOT WANTING to live like this decided to do something about it and found out about mercury and went ahead - risked it knowing the danger- and had an unsafe removal cause I though i'd handle it - WELL I DIDNT and from that on my health collapsed .....

but again it collapsed cause of my sefl-pitty right?

And u didnt think of that did you?

And from that removal my mental gealtrh has been deterirating, which of course DOESNT AFFECT YOUR ATTITDE or DOESNT CRIPLE YOUR MIND DOESNT IT? DEMENTIA DOESNT CRIPLE YOU IN YOUT ABILITY O HANDLE SITUATION DOESNT IT?

cause i had to quit my job after that and had no income and had to rely on my parents money, which they dont have much. In poland people dont have as much money as in us you know?

But did u think of that?

And also in poland almost no naturpaths or holistic docs, one (out of few) I was treated by ditched me. the rest of docs are allopathic so no point turning into them. Also not many choices in terms of edta/dmps chelation etc tec and even not as amny supplements on the market as in us.

Did u consider that?

and the money thing - I try chelate with ala (which doesnt do much so far) with not even ahev ALL the basic supplements andy reccomends, i'm always short of something, i can't even affrd to buy magnesium let alone other stuff that could help clay etc etc..

But u didnt know that either right?

and i could keep asking my parents to give me the money for all those supplements, but i dont cause i know they dont have them esp since they recently spent 200zl (like a 100 bucks) on lyme tetsing for me - which came up negative - and i dont want to burdne them anymore....

but that I guess my attitude right?

i sacrificed 5 healthy teeth to get rest of amalgams out, yet body cant manage much chelation, though i keep trying.

but u were aware of that right?

I stick to a very strict candia diet and I dont indulge myself at all in any sugars - which would be easy in case of self-pitty - as i know the consequences ... almost every day i do enemas - deep cleansing - to get this stuff out of and not sit it and rot it.

But i guess u thought of that?


BOTTOM LINE - WHAT DO YOU KNOW So Sick to talk about me my attitde, what gives u the right to say these things when youre not even going through it? When u not even understand it? what gives u the right eh? Cause u were 'so sick' yourself (which i dont doubt) and came out of it this means u think you 'understand' everyone else here and can pass judgement?

There was a debate wirth u and tracy some time ago and tracy called u judgemental and I didnt want to get into that cause i'm not judegemental myself. But fact as a matetr is that u cant accept that there are two KINDS of people here: THOSE who manage to somehow slowly get better and THOSE who unfortenetly - for some reason - dont respond to treatment (which doesnt mean they dont dont take the effort). You I guess are the FORMER, and i'm glad for you, - but u also had recources to get all those dmps injections and edta and your bodu responded to it - and you should appreciate it. But there are those who the latter and how can they appreciate anything? the latter guys just want somebody to understand them cause sometimes its the only relief. and as for me WANTING (thanx a lot) to ruin other's days and joining me in self-pitty this was my first post:

"F**K THIS LIFE.

Please dont waste your time and energy to answer. Just wanted to say this somwhere. "

as it was today. when I say these things i just know there are people here who know all this and just understand i dont want them to answer, i just wanna say what's botherhing my sould some place where it would be undertood thats all. cause i come off from the assumption that THEY WILL UNDERSTAND what I mean. I guess not all of them.