just about every post you make is full of that attitude jinx, hate to say it. And I'm talking about your story about eating the mercury from a thermometor when you were a kid. Which is the type of thing kids do against their parents' advice, not with it, with a 'screw stupid mommy' attitude even.

correct me if I'm wrong, but this is a self-help forum not a spread the pain and give it up attitude around to anyone within reach forum.

serious, mostly I pity your parents. it must be quite a burden to deal with your attitude face to face on a daily basis. They deserve a medal of honor. I'm sure it has taken quite a toll on them.

it's really not necessary to try to ruin everyone's day if you are somehow able. you're really just screwing yourself in the process. we don't have to live with you but you have to live yourself.

I hope you get over it really I do, it's quite burdensome even from a distance. most of do share your pain jinx, even if we refuse to delight ourselves in it as you appear to do.

maybe if you need to curse at people or life or God or whatever you should get yourself a spiral bound notebook and make it a private memoir. Healing requires a positive attitude and your negativity isn't helpful here.