Good luck to you Tonya, I'm afraid you won't get much sympathy on here admitting to something like that. I wish you all the best and thanks for your kind words. I actually don't feel suicidal, just got to ride it out. Peace be with you my friend, I'm afraid I've had enough of the judgmental stance of some people on here. You'll understand why when you read some of the threads. All the luck in the world. Tracy