to be honest, no it doesn't.

THAT'S THE POINT

(but thank you linda)

like i say trhe situation i am in is a no-win situation. getting worse, battling to stay among the sane, don't know what's happening to me, cant to any tests cause of lack of money or the support of my family, the only ones who want to help me are those who present an option i feel very awkward and sceptical about and would feel a hypocryte if i chose it. so i dont have the luxury of things being realy up to me, esp since all that i have been doing is not just failing at getting better but at not getting worse (which all i would expect at the moment).