Jinx, what tests have you had?

BTW, it's perhaps worth keeping in mind that there are many different kinds of spiritual paths. It creates a lot of negative, draining energy, being angry at a god who doesn't seem to care. Personally I believe that the divine is within all of us, and in everything that exists. It is something we can sensitise ourselves to and be in harmony with. But I don't personify it. Also, there's no one to blame for bad things that happen to me, and I know it's up to me to do the best I can for myself and for others.

Hope this helps.