yea, this is how i know it'll be so i haven't even started trying to follow the diet strictly. because i know if i do start and i mess up, im gonna beat myself up and just wanna give up because i know im gonna have to do it for years. just that thought alone makes me wanna give up. i know that's weak minded and like i said, somehow i have to become a lot stronger mentally. i'm just not there yet. the candida won't go away until the metals go away and i have no idea how long that'll take because i've never experienced detoxing.

i just started recieving disability this month and i've been blowing it on indulgences. it's gonna be extremely hard. i'm a 23 year old young man and i have to mentally grow up to be about 50 with the healthy lifestyle BS. i know that's good and all but i'm just not mentally in that place right now. ughhhhhhhhh i freaking hate this <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />.