HI Weety, so glad you found this forum too and welcome <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I echo your feelings regarding suicide and how family/relatives/friends can think you mad or neurotic and doctors being useless. Though I have a few of each who have been helpful and supportive, the rest have been far from it. Having mercury toxicity is more than difficult enough to bear and is often responsible for causing direct suicidal thoughts, even in someone naturally very positive, plus the long long list of other bizzare and tormenting symptoms. So with that, to handle cynicism on top of it can be the last straw. Somehow, you have to seek out people who understand this, believe in it and will give support to you. Because it is lonely enough!

This is one example that the internet can be used for so much good. And considering so many mercury toxic don't go out, or can't go out, it's even more crucial that they have this outlet.

I hope you find the help you need and information beneficial. Having 17 fillings is just mind blowing to me. I had 8 and was very poisoned. I don't quite know how they can actually fill a person's mouth with that many amalgams, when there is apparently a limit (even with them) in how many they are meant to allow. I thought it was no more than 4.... If that is truly the case, they're even worse than I thought.