the rituals were horrible for me too. if my toys got out of place or my shoes weren't perfect like i put them, then i would be a stressed out wreck. i had so many mental rituals too that i don't even wanna think about. also, there comes the obsessiveness that comes when you are in a relationship that basically just sabotages it. so yea, ocd is a blast lol!!!

bex, what happens when you start to dump metals? i've read about this and i know it is encouraged to get to that point. that's actually what you want but i hear it can be brutal. do you mind telling how it affects you?

shawn