Linda

in my experience the 'wanting to be dead' is definitely weak adrenals, and I think you were right to stop the Armour and wait for your Peatfield appointment. It seems to me that withdrawal from benzos or SSRIs hits the adrenals directly - this is certainly my experience.

Hate to say it, but if you have weak adrenals you may not get on so well with progesterone. I can't recall how it works exactly, but progesterone opposes cortisol, and can make adrenal symptoms worse. The worst time I have had during this illness was when I used progesterone to balance out female hormones. My adrenals, heavily supported as they are, simply could not cope, and I had two horrendous nights of total insomnia, hypoglycemia, clear urine, heart pounding, and extreme shakiness before I worked out what was going on. I will never, ever use progesterone again.

I am an extreme case in terms of adrenal fatigue, and I'm not saying this will happen to you. But just be aware, and go carefully.

Good luck
Nicola