Gosh, so many responses, thank thank you very much guys! This forum is a true touchstane for me whenever everything else fails!

I have to say things have pretty much got clearer for me, esp since I have notcied A BIG improvement in my brain wellbeing today. Yes as someone has said the strong kinesiology response is a sign that my body is healing and this today is turning out to be true! But I dont believe kinesiology gives the full picture and it's all a matter of right interpretation! I just think what this kinesiology thing showed yesterday is that I'm the beginning of a turning point and my body is starting to get the strengths back.

Proof - 2 days ago I completed a 3 day chelation round, after which I felt a *slight* improvement in my brain. Yesterday I was all an amotional mess because of overall wellbeing and that was componded by the doc's suggestion it's all in my head and my family's response to it! I was so damn angry and pscyho I trashed my room the day before yesterday and also yesterday in the morning. And I just couldn't contain myself. I have also been maintaning a very strict anticandida diet which now I know was killing the yeast. And yesterday I decided to test the theory of me not having candida anymore and went to the shop and bought like 5 ICECREAMS (yep!). I ate them all with WHITE rhye bread with garlic.

and guess what guys ? In a couple of minutes/ hours my anxiety and psychotic feeling COMPLETELY stopped. Then late at night I felt the brain improvement I was talking about. And I still have been feeling it this whole day today. Guess what again? About an hour ago I did a cleansing enema so that I get out all the bad things I ate yesterday. Now I feel anxiey again slowly setting in and my belly is grugling AGAIN! (it was grugling this whole time that I was feeling psychotic the day befor yesterday and before that).

Now contrary to a false logic that some people might apply THIS IS PROOF I still have candida/dysbiosis issue, and I have been in such situation a couple of times before in the past (but back then I didn't know what to make of it). I think the strict diet had been killing of yeasts this whole time, hence my psychotic/anxiety feeling and gurgling and eating those bad foods gave me a (drug-addict like) FIX and the candida killing process stopped and that's why I felt better.
But the very fact that this bad food yesterday didn't give any brain fog or drunken feeling anymore is proof of what the muslce testing showed, that my candida situation is much more under control.
I'm going back on the diet again and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna feel anxious-bipolar-crappy again, but this time I intend to pull through to the end.

So yeah you are right guys, you gotta trust yourself, and kinesiology or even any other testing NEVER gives the full picture.
But still I have to admit that this doc guys has a point of saying I have emotional issues and I am very negative. Truth is I probably have had very little faith in my recovery. But still It doesn't mean the physical problems are over, if anything this is just the beginning of healing and emotional problems can't get solved if you have brain not working right.

I guess the tough part is the family support , that doc is not just a plain kinesiologist he's actually an MD with two medical specialties and other medical degrees who turned holostic. He also told me once he's been cooperating wth other holistic docs all over the Europe, and that he's friends with hulda clark. (I believe him). So he's quite an authority, and I was the one who wanted to go thim in the first place, that's why my family prefers to believe him, not me. Sad because, if there are any true emotional problems of mine, they are because of such little trust put in me by my family esp since the problems concern ME.

That's why, AGAIN, thanx for having you here guys.

And I think I'm starting to believe;)