checkmate btw.

pretty tight corner you locked yourself into there. you have to reinvent yourself after that one.

well, there is one option left on the table that you have not explored, and that is the possibilty that God is real. if he is real, like you heard when you were a little child, then he should answer when you call to him right?

I suggest you begin exploring the possibilty. throw away the texbooks and preconcieved ideas and simply seek. if you put as much heart and energy into it as your evolution search you will probably succeed in it. it's pretty obvious by now that that is the answer you need, Linda. months and months of searching for answers in evolution have left you between a rock and a hard place. But one moment in the the presence of the Lord will answer every question, really it will.