hi everyone. i hope it is ok i post here about things i go through and ask about them to see if others relate. i just don't have anyone else to talk about this with.

first off, how many of you are really emotionally sensitive? like getting hurt really easy emotionally and hypersensitive and aware to danger and people hurting you? i dont know if this has a lot to do with the metals and copper or if it is just me. i've been that way forever and i've had metals forever so i guess i'm scared i'm gonna be this way forever. i do know that from the info i read about copper toxicity that high copper people are really sensitive and emotional people but its hard for me to believe that i am not so sensitive when i'm healthy cuz i've felt this way my whole life.

if someone reading this can relate, could you tell me how mercury or copper affected your relationships like boyfriend/girlfriends etc? i'm being kinda personal here but my intuition tells me i was too sick to have the relationshiops i did. has anyone else had unhealthy relationshiops because they were too sick, fatigued, mental(just feeling detached and not like yourself), depressed, etc etc? also, did anyone get hurt becaues they felt codependent and needy etc etc? i hope i'm making since and haven't asked too many questions.

i guess i've just had a lot of time to look at my life and my relationships. like my self-esteem is gone. there really isn't any and there never really was any. i had scholarships to play baseball and was successful and nothing ever made me happy and i'm worse now than i was. i'm scared. i'm scared this is the real me and i could never have a family or be stable feeling like this. i could never be a man in this world. i don't really have love for myself. i think that has a lot to do with my horrible parents maybe.