jinx,

i understand what you are saying and i just didn't articulate myself very well. i think you are referring to just overall cognitive malfunction and if so, i definitely have that and had it most my life. everyday, i am different and my perspective changes like you say. emotions are also involved and i guess its hard for me to discern the difference between brain process emotions etc. it's like i have always had an identity problem and until my cognition improves, i can't have stable mind, body, and spirit that i want made in myself if that makes any sense. like i'll always be up down and all around with emotions, perspective, and everything.