I totally relate to this! I "feel" lazy and I "act" lazy, yet I know Im not truly a lazy person but a toxic sick person. If I ever get the rare moment where a surge of apparent improvements rush through me and energy comes, suddenly I want to do things and help out or have fun. I almost don't stop, the feeling is amazing and you can't help but want to get active.

However, the majority of the time I feel listeless, dead and my body feels as though I am carrying around a dead weight. Dragging one foot in front of the other, this also effects my mind and gives me the feeling of "i can't be bothered". Like yourself, even small tasks require marathon efforts and sometimes I feel like breaking down and crying even just thinking I have to do something. I have been referred to as lazy before by other people.

It's so bad that even taking a bath feels like a chore. Washing myself is exhausting. How sad is that?